Finally after four days in a noisy truck, and more than 2,000 miles later, we got home earlier this evening. Wow, was that nice! Now the only thing left is to unload the truck. Hopefully, that won’t be as hellacious as packing up the house in Maine, loading the truck and making that ride from one end of the Eastern seabord to the other.
The only downside of coming back was coming home to a rejection letter from Kensington. The editor who looked at my manuscripts liked the basic stories but felt that the characters didn’t draw him in and so he passed on both. Now, I have recovered from that livejournal person’s rant. However, that and the rejection coupled together is threatening to send me into one of those confidence crises I have every so often. Thankfully, those crises pass and I continue on.
It doesn’t feel quite as bad this time because I’m very happy so far with the White Tigers series. I love those books and have a few more on the way. Maybe the rejection from Kensington means I’m not meant to go mainstream, at least at this time. Perhaps doing so would take me away from the White Tigers books and that would take me away from writing the stories that are really in my heart to writing books just to get contracts from big NY publishers. Maybe that would put too much pressure on me (I’m not one of those people who does well with any pressure) and then I wouldn’t derive the joy out of writing that I do now. I could easily see that happening, in which case, these rejections are a way of being protected from bad things.
My critique partner, Ruth was telling me about a famous romance author who actually have a nervous breakdown after hitting the big time because she felt so overly pressured to produce novels that she just stopped altogether. Of course, this certainly doesn’t happen to every romance writer, or even many, judging by the plethora of romance novels on the market. But with my personality type, I could see somthing like that happening to me. I need to keep it simple. Let’s face it, I’m published at Ellora’s Cave, Red Sage in Dec. 08, as well as Loose Id, Total-e-Bound, Torquere Press and STARbooks Press. I really have a lot to be contented about. Okay, I didn’t even have to go into crisis this time. I talked myself out of it. lol Thanks for listening!
That all said, Men of Tokyo: Sudden Surrender is releaseing in a few days! I’m really excited about that. Anyway, I’m exhausted from this trip and am going to sleep now. I’ll write more soon. Thanks for visiting!